Sunday, November 21, 2004

Who are we?

I was reading through a dear friend's blog, (Allison) and stumbled on this entry... I don't think she'll mind that I put it in my blog...
So I have some random thoughts. I saw a guy on I know campus today with his family. I see this guy every day as a student and as a musician, but it was different to see him as a son and brother. Then this made me think of the different roles we play. Myself- I am a student, musician, roommate, daughter, employee, sister, friend, taskmaster, etc. But this doesn't make me or anyone else who we are. They are just roles.
I think these pondering stem from Chris Huertz talk about the three lies of identity:
-I am what I do
-I am what I have
-I am what others think I am
These are what we normally base our identity on, but it is not who we are. According to the Bible, we are the sons and daughters of God. It amuses me that are core identity is as simple as that. We have it so wrong sometime- we overemphasize, overanalyze, and overcomplicate.

Very good point.. and I think I struggle with this enormously: society tells me that I need to be this certian thing, but yet I know that I am a child of the creator and that is what is important.. only that.. but how do I actually find identity in that? I am loved with out condition....WITHOUT condition or hesitation, but when I think about it, what exactly does that mean? I can be myself, I would imagine, but who is that? Allison- you have found things in your life that you are passionate about- things that you can do so beautifully (Music), and you are still not defined as that, but as a child because God has given you this gift to enjoy the life He gave to you.. does this sound right? I also have finally found a place that I love to be in life... so that is my task in life but not who I am? My brain can only stretch so far...

So I graduate in two and a half weeks with an Esthetic's licence!!! AAAH!! Next Sunday will be very hard for me, but also something that my soul needs to do: My work is hosting a full day of beauty (hair, massage, esthetics, nails) for cancer survivors- I finally have a chance to participate in the day by giving facials and doing makeup--- I so desparately need to do this as it will be my first chance to do what I did when I was three: take care of someone dying of cancer.... I love knowing that I will be able to take special care of someone else - I want to say that I have immense devotion to cancer survivors but acutally I feel it brings me back to 'where I came from' . I really want to make these women feel totally beautiful and cared for: this is why I wanted to do Esthetics in the first place!

1 Comments:

Blogger Laura Alden said...

Ester:
I am SO VERY glad to hear that this has been encouraging for you!! Waiting seems like such a tedius proposition that may or may not yield results... and if we do wait, what do we do in the mean time... it's funny: I was mentioning this to my sister-in-law and told her (one of those moments where the truth came out without me thinking through what I really was saying first) that I 'didn't have that kind of time'... my goodness!! My time is not my own anyhow, and furthermore, can I see everything laid out? Can I presume to know what I need and who I need to become to be what that other person needs? I tend to be someone who strongly goes out and gets what she wants with out hesitation (can be good and bad.. yikes) and that is a total lack of patience because I don't 'think' that things will just come to me- I have to go out, seek, and find.
I hope things are getting better for you- I would love an update to see how time is treating you...
Thanks for responding!
Laura Alden

November 24, 2004 at 7:09 AM  

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