It's been a while
It's been a while since I have slowed down enough to write. I finally have graduated... I take the board exams in January... very excited about that. The Christmas party at Carol's was fun and the blind date ended up being a lot older than I had expected and totally not my type- he's into musicals and honestly, I have the smallest to none interest in anything like that. The party was fun- Carol has a gorgeous (and very huge) house- cute little dog (Mitsy) and many wonderful friends that I chatted with. Carol will be devistated when I tell her that I'm not going to call this guy back... his parents were so spectactular, though! (I went over to their house to hang out first- have a drink and got a full tour of thier house- beautiful! They are self made people who are honest, thoughtful and hospitable- so wonderful.
Work is going okay- I am talking with Tammy again although I really have no interest to ever hang out with her- we don't like the same places, I don't have any children, and there is an age gap of 9 years that we're dealing with. I don't want to go out again to those bars, so why would we hang out?
School was wonderful up until the very end- I will miss going every day, but I am looking forward to the future very much- I do have something on my mind however that involved two nights ago (I hung out with Josh) who told me that he loved me (YIKES) and I went out even though I have stopped going out all together becasue I love the new ministry (by the way- Rich and Liz have joined the leadership team with Zack and I) butI made a mistake that I am very concerned about- I pray that it all works out the way I am seriously hoping it will: I don't love JOsh and I don't love the fact that he told me that and I am angry that I got close to someone again and deceived them into thinking that they care about me that way- I can be so careless and reckless sometimes! These are actually people's lives that I'm dealing with- not recreational items. I have so far to go and so much to learn.
I saw a movie the other day (The Last Samauri) that really held my attention- the Japanese culture is so beautiful- their art, clothing, social graces, history, and everyday living amazes me- I would love to go there some day- just to meet and mingle with that culture would be such an experience!!
Work is going okay- I am talking with Tammy again although I really have no interest to ever hang out with her- we don't like the same places, I don't have any children, and there is an age gap of 9 years that we're dealing with. I don't want to go out again to those bars, so why would we hang out?
School was wonderful up until the very end- I will miss going every day, but I am looking forward to the future very much- I do have something on my mind however that involved two nights ago (I hung out with Josh) who told me that he loved me (YIKES) and I went out even though I have stopped going out all together becasue I love the new ministry (by the way- Rich and Liz have joined the leadership team with Zack and I) butI made a mistake that I am very concerned about- I pray that it all works out the way I am seriously hoping it will: I don't love JOsh and I don't love the fact that he told me that and I am angry that I got close to someone again and deceived them into thinking that they care about me that way- I can be so careless and reckless sometimes! These are actually people's lives that I'm dealing with- not recreational items. I have so far to go and so much to learn.
I saw a movie the other day (The Last Samauri) that really held my attention- the Japanese culture is so beautiful- their art, clothing, social graces, history, and everyday living amazes me- I would love to go there some day- just to meet and mingle with that culture would be such an experience!!
posted by Laura Alden at Sunday, December 19, 2004
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