Starting my Career on Monday
I am booked already on Monday. I can barely contain my excitement!!!! I start officially with a brand-new client alongside a Classic European Facial for Kelly and Four Layer facial and full Bikini and Leg for Amy L.... I am more than excited to do this.. and get paid for it! It is a dream come true and I thank God for giving me the vision and the feet to get me here. I stopped by my advisor's office for a meeting about what classes I need to take to graduate... I want to take the Personalities (psych) Course offered in March but I need to save up $700 to do so. Yikes! It's worth it, though- let me tell you!! The new advisor is a sweetheart and really has her self pulled together- very professional and very sweet.
So, I had another chat with Tammy which helped me immensely. We were chatting about the guys/mistakes in my life and she really had helpful things to say. "Have you ever been alone? Can you be? Wouldn't it be good to just try it to prove to yourself that you can be?" I feel like I wouldn't be able to be in the past, but I think I might be able to do it now. It's like this: I'm not dating anyone at the current time, but I have an immense pull in my heart that desires something real: someone whom I can pour all my time into and tell all my woes and joys. I do, however, have this silly 'circuit' as Tammy calls it, of people that I go back to. I've been struggling lately and the latest 'mistake' is still around. I have such an urge to be honest with him, though. He is attractive to me because (I met him at a bar- he made the best gesture of shivelry by moving everyone out of the way when I was trying to walk through the a crowd to the bar.. he's a tall guy 6'3'' and Italian... good looking!) he takes care of himself financially and I don't have to support him or pay for things when we go out. Usually I don't mind in most cases, but it seems like he's the first real gentleman that I've met and it's refreshing. He doesn't have a job, he hasn't for a long time, he has a huge and beautiful apartment with beautiful decorations, He smokes freely, he locks the door to his room even when he is just going outside to do something or go to the convenient store around the corner, he has his own Jeep that he owns, a massive screen TV in him living room, and goes back to NY when he feels like it for the weekend. Does anyone else see a problem here? Goodness. The real tipper is that his phone rings at home and on his cell EVERY COUPLE OF MINUTES. "I have a lot of friends..' yikes. I think there just might be something else going on here. To be truthful, I get a high from it- I haven't been told outright, but I just like to live in a little world of denial and reap the benefits of hanging out with a 'self-motivated' and independant person. I also want to let him go. I don't want to be with him. I don't want to be with Josh. I don't want to be with any of these guys. I think I'm almost ready to prove to myself that I can do this without a guy.
So, I had another chat with Tammy which helped me immensely. We were chatting about the guys/mistakes in my life and she really had helpful things to say. "Have you ever been alone? Can you be? Wouldn't it be good to just try it to prove to yourself that you can be?" I feel like I wouldn't be able to be in the past, but I think I might be able to do it now. It's like this: I'm not dating anyone at the current time, but I have an immense pull in my heart that desires something real: someone whom I can pour all my time into and tell all my woes and joys. I do, however, have this silly 'circuit' as Tammy calls it, of people that I go back to. I've been struggling lately and the latest 'mistake' is still around. I have such an urge to be honest with him, though. He is attractive to me because (I met him at a bar- he made the best gesture of shivelry by moving everyone out of the way when I was trying to walk through the a crowd to the bar.. he's a tall guy 6'3'' and Italian... good looking!) he takes care of himself financially and I don't have to support him or pay for things when we go out. Usually I don't mind in most cases, but it seems like he's the first real gentleman that I've met and it's refreshing. He doesn't have a job, he hasn't for a long time, he has a huge and beautiful apartment with beautiful decorations, He smokes freely, he locks the door to his room even when he is just going outside to do something or go to the convenient store around the corner, he has his own Jeep that he owns, a massive screen TV in him living room, and goes back to NY when he feels like it for the weekend. Does anyone else see a problem here? Goodness. The real tipper is that his phone rings at home and on his cell EVERY COUPLE OF MINUTES. "I have a lot of friends..' yikes. I think there just might be something else going on here. To be truthful, I get a high from it- I haven't been told outright, but I just like to live in a little world of denial and reap the benefits of hanging out with a 'self-motivated' and independant person. I also want to let him go. I don't want to be with him. I don't want to be with Josh. I don't want to be with any of these guys. I think I'm almost ready to prove to myself that I can do this without a guy.
posted by Laura Alden at Saturday, January 29, 2005
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