Victorious!

One month today, actually, I was blessed with an accountability partener. He spoke out in faith to me and we both decided that our current vices- mine being drinking/bars/etc. and his being a different sort of vice- were weighing on us enough to start on a journey. IT HAS BEEN EXACTLY FOUR WEEKS TODAY THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TO THE BARS, MADE PLANS WITH PEOPLE WHO I ONCE HUNG OUT WITH AT THE BARS, OR HAD A CIGARETTE OR EVEN A LITTLE DRINK AWAY FROM THE BARS. God can move mountains. He is AMAZING. I NEVER thought I would be where I am today.
GOD BE PRAISED!
God has been speaking so clearly through Zack- forgiving my father, forgiving his sister (we had a wonderful time canoeing/camping minus how she made me feel like a reject becasue I am a girly-girl) and actually getting to the point of softening my heart to forgive her before I would have naturally, sticking with my job when I was scared of moving to commission (and not running away- but taking his advice to trust in God through this time and act in faith- the next day I found out that one of the estheticians was going to be terminated and I was going to have my own room--- GOD IS SO GOOD- amazing timing- but He allowed me to give in first before He presented me with an enormous gift), new perspectives on food- To always stand up and dust myself off whenever I have a mistake crop up- never to give in to the: "What does it matter" dark cloud/ or the "what difference does it make now?" dark cloud.
These are just a couple of miracles that have been happening in my life. I am really glad, actually, that I am writing them down-- I want to look back and know that when I act in faith or soften my heart (God can't work with a heart that is set in it's ways and stubborn) God blesses and rejoyces with me!
God- I am so thankful for all you have done in my life for the past month. You have truly blessed my heart and I am pretty sad that I can't make communion tonight because of work- this is our one month anniversary of victory!! I pray, Lord- from the depths of my heart to continue your work through myself and Zack- to allow us to have victory after victory with your help-- I want to continue this journey towards you and your will. I feel like jumping for joy or shouting thanks becasue you have done miraculous things in this month- June 2005. Lord, I thank you and all praise be to you! You are the one that has allowed me the strength to do this and I thank you for choosing me to demonstrate your ability and power. Thank you for rescuing me and for sparing me all the other times before when I didn't choose you. Lord, I pray for another month of victory until next month when I will pray for another month. I don't want this to end- what a blessing! Thank you! Love your daughter, Me. :)