I'm not still victorious

I'm not victorious, but I have grown more since my last entry. Work is going wonderfully. (Thank you God) and I am becoming closer with my roommate and my friends.... Tracy (the owner) and I chatted today while I gave her a microderm and she invited me to go to church with her the first week in November. She has such a love for God... and it shows!
I have decided after this last 'Nick incident' that I am done with online dating, meeting guys through friends and set ups. They don't work and never will. (lol!! Goodness!) I am going to just sit here. I don't want to be single forever, so with that desire I can rest assured that God designed me to be with someone and even though this will be hard, I am going to wait. I dont' want to waste another day having my hair done for me and my makeup applied and dinner made for some silly boy---- I will look good for myself. I will not sit here another moment and think about Adam becasue he and I are over and will never be back together. He wasn't made for me and no matter of loving him and holding on to who we were will not carry me through tomorrow so:
"C'est la Vie... that's life and that's how it's going to be! Hold tight- it all becomes right eventually!" -Shania Twain

So what do I want to do with mytime?
-Take up Yoga or Pilates
-Focus on my job and remembering my clients and their needs
-My family
-My nephew :) :)
-Have a clean room
-Get to know my roommate better
-Drink more water
-Spend time with Kathy each week
-Walk/Run/Etc.
-Do a Bible Study with Liz
-Enjoy life from now on ---- no more boys who waste my time.
-Learn more about who I am
-Learn how to communicate better with people
-Learn to go to
-Be a part of a ministry
-Learn to go to the 'dreaded' coffee hour
-Get toned up!
-Write more
-Create more
-Learn more about products and chemistry that surrounds the products that I use
-Volunteer.

I need to stop filling my life with meaningless garbage and then going back to those things that poke at me and bring me back like fools from the past that I keep calling back and the memories of 'who I used to be' instead of who I am able to become!!!!

Stand up again and take a deep breath--- I am ALIVE!!!!