Goodness... there has been so much that I have wanted to write about but really didn't want to start for fear that I wouldn't figure it all out. I have gotten so frustrated with the guys in my life and have called it quits-- JZ, FD.... see yah. I am so sick of guys with their prides and beating their chests like idiots. I am not a commodity nor is any other girl who come into the picture- I will not be look on as such anymore. So here's the update of FD: (Yeah- this is quite the story:) so I met this guy a month ago. I got his number when Tammy and I were our favorite place in the town over- and I had seen him the night before when I was with other friends (JZ and crew) and he had caught my eye-- I was trying to get through the crowd and he moved everyone aside so I could get through- nice jesture. He was all smiles that night and seemed to know everyone. I love confidence, a good-natured spirit and social skills. So, he caught my eye. He called a coupld days later and we hung out.. he was two hours late because he had gotten arrested- he had been told by another guy that he wanted to fight him and so he went. (Hello? Red flashing lights- Rage problem anyone?) And was late to see me. Okay- fine, but that was the first thing. So we hang out for a couple weeks and I meet his roommate who is a sweetie and has the same occupation as me and we have so much to talk about. So, he's rarely on time which kills me and I don't like waiting. So, we have a heart to heart and drive for, like, two to three hours and drive around the whole state practically and we are honest. Okay- so he is a player-- and so much better than I could have ever imagined. And he found out that I have a couple of issues as well- one issue in priority that he happens to be friends with.. long story. So we hang out and decide that we are going to just be honest with each other since we're cut from the same cloth. He leaves for Florida on a whim and has been gone a week. He calls me a couple days ago and asks me NOT ONLY to buy a ticket for him to come back ("I have cash on me and I'll pay you back the second that you pick me up...) Yeah and asked me to pick him up at the airport. Okay- a day before that he was annhilated and called me to tell me about how he's almost in love with me (I HATE THAT) and how I am so important to him and how he needed to go to Florida to figure that out. (He said that he had to help out his cousin and that's why he just took off one Monday night.. yup.) So two days ago he called and I was pissed- just sick of him and that combined with JZ telling his friends that we were boyfriend and girlfriend.. not happening. I was so fed up with it all. (ARRG!) So, what does FD tell me why I should know that he cares about me? Okay- this is a doosey: "All the girls down here are like super models, and I'm calling you." No, it wasn't the kind of 'you' that was uplifting, it was the tone where I should be thankful that he stooped down low enough to hang out with me and I needed to be grateful that he even speaks to me.
OH MY GOODNESS. So after a few hang ups on him later, (he called from his friend's cell phone- it wasn't registered on my phone) and a bunch of left messages telling me how important and wonderful I am, I call his roommate.... Yeah- the girl herself. I inform her that I am not picking him up from the airport and that she needs to be ready to pay for his ticket and pick him up 'cause I'm all set. She tells me that I need to follow my gut feelings about him, and that she told him when she first met me, for him to 'just let me go' and to not 'do this to her(me)'... not sure what that means, but he is exactly what I thought he was... No fun. Being right isn't always a good thing. So what happens yesterday morning? She calls me up and appologizes for telling me that-- she's sorry that she jumped to conclusions and she didn't realize that he cared about me and that I was a different case for her dear roomate.' OH MY GOODNESS-- I KNOW that he called her and threated her to call me and appologize. I just know it. WHAT A JERK. It's almost scary.
I need to stick to the nice guys no matter how boring they may be- it's my best bet.
But her advice to trust my gut feeling is brilliant-- I've had many gut feelings but ignore my mind as I think with my heart and abandon all logic when it comes to having a good time-- and I guess that explains why I love to be in the midst of craziness- it's interesting and keeps my mind busy. THere you go Freud: I've figured myself out.
